It's hard to think of him as just a friend. Its hard to think about him period. Yet I can't seem to get him out if my mind
Everything he did to make me happy in the span of when we were together was matched with the hurt done in one night. we did something without thinking about it triggering a chain of events that ended up with us not being able to show love towards each other any longer.
The thought of it hurt so much I couldn't take it. Everything in me wanted to scream but instead i wept silently ib my bed, later falling asleep in a pool of my tears. 'The morning i could hardly move I was sore and my eyes still stung. 3 hours of sleep was all I had. Quietly I stayed alongside my mom through out the day. sometimes my thoughts would stray and tears would escape my eyes again.
Home again I was able to talk to him. He explained how he felt and I was happy knowing. He shared out thoughts, feelings, and questions to eachother trying to understand & belive the unbelieveable.Sad but not angery at the end result of our conversation. we hope to once again be together but not for anotehr year. I still love him and until then I'll be waiting.